I'm having commitment issues.
The plan for along time, possibly since running it in 2010, has been to do the 2013 Disney Marathon. It's been open for a couple of months, and the price increases soon, and I haven't registered, nor can I convince myself to even go to the registration page.
2013 marks the race's 20th anniversary, and Disney has promised lots of surprises to make it special. Many good friends are already registered, and a couple will be doing it at their first full. I want to be a part of that just as others have done for me over time.
But, the thought of starting marathon training in a couple of months and then doing the race itself has little to no appeal. While I know the race experience itself would be great, I also know it would be a long long day. My best marathon was over 6 hours. This would likely would be, too.
Running right now feels like requires alot of effort as it is. Physically, I feel awful. Dealing with an injury for 4 months helped pack back on about twenty pounds and lose muscle tone. I feel rolly polly, and race pics don't hide that either. My runs and gym workouts only remind me of the conditioning I've lost.
Yes, part of it is fear that my plantar fasciitis will flair up again. I do still feel discomfort in my foot, but fortunately I have not had any of the pain and cramping that I did last year.
Since MCM was a local race, the only financial loss for me was about $100 for the registration and associated fees. If something were to happen while training for Disney, it would be significantly more. Registration is $150 (if I do it sooner rather than later to get the "early" price), and airfare could be $300 or more based on recent costs.
So, while I haven't completely ruled it out, I think it's safe to see where I'm leaning.
While the marathon itself is not appealing, focusing on me and getting back into "fighting shape" is. I feel like I need to take that motivation and run with it instead, pun intended, lol, and focus on good training for the Annapolis Ten Miler and a couple of fall half marathons.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Sunday, January 1, 2012
2011 By the Numbers
Just a short post to summarize and compare my last couple of years. The impact of missing 1/4 of the year due to injury is quite apparent.
2010 mileage = 654
2011 mileage = 481
2010 full marathons = 2
2011 full marathons = 0 (Note: DNS MCM)
2011 full marathons = 0 (Note: DNS MCM)
2010 ½ marathons = 9
2011 ½ marathons = 6 (Note: DNS 2)
2011 ½ marathons = 6 (Note: DNS 2)
2010 10milers = 2
2011 10milers = 3 (Note: Annapolis 10 miler canceled due to hurricane)
2011 10milers = 3 (Note: Annapolis 10 miler canceled due to hurricane)
New PR’s for 2011 =
3/6/11: B&A Trail ½ marathon – 2:37:03
4/10/11: Ladies 5K By the Bay – 33:20
4/11/11: Cherry Pit 10 miler – 1:57:45
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Where I've Been, Where I'm Going
Don't worry, I haven't vanished into the blog-o-sphere. I'm still around, but just haven't had too much to say for the last couple of months.
Today was the Celtic Solstice 5 miler and was to have been my come back race from my foot problems. I decided not to participate, thus officially ending my 2011 running season in a dull thud. While I have started running a couple of miles here and there, I was not confident that I could get through all 5 miles without problems. The truth of that matter is that after 3 months of physical therapy, I still have some degree of discomfort/pain in my foot on practically a daily basis.
I have started planning ahead to next year and being healthy to train for Spring races. I am not going to do a full marathon in 2012, mainly because I don't want to spend a third consecutive summer in training mode. If I can get through 2012 without any problems, then I will consider a full for 2013.
Right now I'm registered for and hoping to do:
3/18/2012 - Shamrock 1/2
4/29/2012 - Iron Girl 1/2
5/6/2012 - Frederick 1/2
5/20/2012 - Run for the Dream 1/2
10/13/2012 - Baltimore 1/2
The optimist in me registered for these as a way to have something to look forward to, especially the time that would be spent with friends. The pessimist thinks it was dumb and a waste of money when I don't know what the future holds. More than once I've thought of just quitting. The problem is, I've never quit anything. However, rather than fuel the desire to heal and improve, all I can think of is the hard work ahead of me. The last 3+ months have brought back alot of old habits - mainly making me lazy and complacent. There is a very long road ahead of me to get back the conditioning and endurance I had. It took so long to get and so quickly to lose.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
No Regrets
Today, rather than running the Marine Corps Marathon, I stood at the end of the infamous bridge and cheered, both 10K and marathon runners. I had no regrets.
I watched people hobble and grimace, and I knew I would have been one of them, if I had even made it to mile 22. I had no regrets.
I was there to help old friends and new, and thousands of strangers, when they needed it. I had no regrets.
I watched people hobble and grimace, and I knew I would have been one of them, if I had even made it to mile 22. I had no regrets.
I was there to help old friends and new, and thousands of strangers, when they needed it. I had no regrets.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
The Journey Ends
I have decided that I won't be running the Marine Corps Marathon in three weeks, and I'm ok with it.
I think my last entry was a good therapy for me. Now, I can actually talk about the race without tears welling up. I can look forward to going out and cheering on my friends, rather than fear how I will feel seeing everything going on without being a part of it.
The reality is no matter how hard a decision this was to make, deep down, it was truly the right one. There are many other races in my future, and this insures that.
When my foot issues got bad in early September, I toyed with the idea of doing a November race instead, either Richmond or Philadelphia, but have since decided that would still be rushing myself. This can be such a long term, chronic condition, that I want to do everything I can to take care of it now rather than risk how bad it could get in the future.
So, for now, it's rest and planning out the journeys and adventures that await.
Friday, September 30, 2011
30 Days
Well, the Marine Corps Marathon is 30 days away, and, the uncertainty of whether or not I will be able to participate is growing with each day that passes. I've got 2 weeks of physical therapy under my belt, and while I have been seeing some improvements, progress is still slow and frustrating, especially for a Type A personality.
My therapist told me I could run 5-6 miles last weekend, certainly nowhere near the 18-20 I originally had down on my training plan. I planned on 6, and if I felt good after that, I'd do 2 more for a total of 8. I am registered for a half marathon tomorrow, and needed to test out my body to see if 13.1 would even be possible. I had 5 pain free miles. As a result, I am spending this weekend at home rather than running through the hills of West Virginia. This was a race I have been trying to plan for for 2 years now, so to say I'm disappointed about having to cancel is an understatement.
To say that barely making it through 6 miles was a reality check is an even bigger understatement. While neither the podiatrist nor therapist has outright told me that MCM is out of the question, I am beginning to accept that it probably is. I'm beginning almost a mourning process so to speak. My emotions are still too raw - I can barely talk about it without tearing up because of the disappointment I feel so deep down. To know how close I was to being done with my training, I did get all the way up to 18 miles, and see it all go to waste is frustrating. The early early hours, the pushing myself to my limit in 90+ degree temps and horrific humidity, all seem for naught now.
I am beginning to come around to the fact that even if my foot is feeling better by late October, is it really going to be worth it go through with my race plans? A friend asked me the other day why I feel the need to keep doing marathons. My response "because I want to do them better." Going into a marathon 7 weeks after my longest run and dealing with an injury is certainly not doing it better. Perhaps this is where the experience of having 2 fulls already under my belt is a good thing - I know how hard and painful it would be to begin with, dealing with these factors would certainly be worse.
So, I have not canceled any plans as of yet. I've missed the window to transfer my registration to another runner, but I can still transfer from the full marathon to the 10K, which I would certainly be capable of completing by that point. But, would I feel like I'm settling? Is it an all of nothing for me now? Am I admitting defeat? If I can't do the full, I'm not even sure I want to step foot into the expo. It would just be too painful.
My therapist told me I could run 5-6 miles last weekend, certainly nowhere near the 18-20 I originally had down on my training plan. I planned on 6, and if I felt good after that, I'd do 2 more for a total of 8. I am registered for a half marathon tomorrow, and needed to test out my body to see if 13.1 would even be possible. I had 5 pain free miles. As a result, I am spending this weekend at home rather than running through the hills of West Virginia. This was a race I have been trying to plan for for 2 years now, so to say I'm disappointed about having to cancel is an understatement.
To say that barely making it through 6 miles was a reality check is an even bigger understatement. While neither the podiatrist nor therapist has outright told me that MCM is out of the question, I am beginning to accept that it probably is. I'm beginning almost a mourning process so to speak. My emotions are still too raw - I can barely talk about it without tearing up because of the disappointment I feel so deep down. To know how close I was to being done with my training, I did get all the way up to 18 miles, and see it all go to waste is frustrating. The early early hours, the pushing myself to my limit in 90+ degree temps and horrific humidity, all seem for naught now.
I am beginning to come around to the fact that even if my foot is feeling better by late October, is it really going to be worth it go through with my race plans? A friend asked me the other day why I feel the need to keep doing marathons. My response "because I want to do them better." Going into a marathon 7 weeks after my longest run and dealing with an injury is certainly not doing it better. Perhaps this is where the experience of having 2 fulls already under my belt is a good thing - I know how hard and painful it would be to begin with, dealing with these factors would certainly be worse.
So, I have not canceled any plans as of yet. I've missed the window to transfer my registration to another runner, but I can still transfer from the full marathon to the 10K, which I would certainly be capable of completing by that point. But, would I feel like I'm settling? Is it an all of nothing for me now? Am I admitting defeat? If I can't do the full, I'm not even sure I want to step foot into the expo. It would just be too painful.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Confessions - Follow up
Thank you all for the great input in my iPod debate. The jury is still out on this. Having run MCM last year, there are certain parts of the course that I think I would like a bit of distraction, So, I am still leaning towards having some tunes to turn to if needed. If I decide to go this route, I will get the specially designed One Good Earbud in an effort to address some of my safety concerns.
As for my foot issues, I actually was pretty reasonable with myself for a change. When faced with running a local half marathon this past Sunday, I came to the conclusion the night before that deep down this really was a bad idea. My foot was still achy, and there are other things coming up that I am looking much more forward to. The doubt and fear I had that I would do something to further hurt myself and cause me to have to back out of October plans was far too great. I didn't run, and Monday morning I called a podiatrist.
Wednesday morning I got my official plantar fasciitis diagnosis. The good news is that there were no surprises - this is what I expected. So, I'm now on oral steroids to combat the inflammation, which I think right now is the biggest issue of them all and what drove me to finally see a Dr since none of the at home treatments were working. She even told me that even at it's strongest dose, Ibuprofen wasn't going to touch it, validating in my mind my decision to go. I did vetoed the injection idea though, preferring to try the oral meds route first. The fact she let me choose rather than coming right at me with a syringe definitely impressed me. I have to wear running shoes pretty much all of my waking hours, and, I can still run a couple of miles 3-4 times a week.
Monday afternoon I have a physical therapy evaluation. I'm hoping once the inflammation goes down that the therapist will have me moving again, quickly. Needless to say, my participation in the upcoming Freedom's Run 1/2 Marathon and, of course, MCM, are both hanging in the air. The Dr did write "training for a marathon - wishes to resume training schedule asap" on my therapy slip, so at least we are on the same page. ;)
As for my foot issues, I actually was pretty reasonable with myself for a change. When faced with running a local half marathon this past Sunday, I came to the conclusion the night before that deep down this really was a bad idea. My foot was still achy, and there are other things coming up that I am looking much more forward to. The doubt and fear I had that I would do something to further hurt myself and cause me to have to back out of October plans was far too great. I didn't run, and Monday morning I called a podiatrist.
Wednesday morning I got my official plantar fasciitis diagnosis. The good news is that there were no surprises - this is what I expected. So, I'm now on oral steroids to combat the inflammation, which I think right now is the biggest issue of them all and what drove me to finally see a Dr since none of the at home treatments were working. She even told me that even at it's strongest dose, Ibuprofen wasn't going to touch it, validating in my mind my decision to go. I did vetoed the injection idea though, preferring to try the oral meds route first. The fact she let me choose rather than coming right at me with a syringe definitely impressed me. I have to wear running shoes pretty much all of my waking hours, and, I can still run a couple of miles 3-4 times a week.
Monday afternoon I have a physical therapy evaluation. I'm hoping once the inflammation goes down that the therapist will have me moving again, quickly. Needless to say, my participation in the upcoming Freedom's Run 1/2 Marathon and, of course, MCM, are both hanging in the air. The Dr did write "training for a marathon - wishes to resume training schedule asap" on my therapy slip, so at least we are on the same page. ;)
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